I see myself as an actor more so than a performer, so although the show will be me being me, I will be expanding upon myself for the performance. By that I mean creating or exaggerating my own personality.

In our one-to-one Martin asked “why does Cody want to talk about death?” (Curtis, 2016). There is a sense of stuck between being alive and death. I personally feel I do have a lust for life but also a morbid knowledge of how unpredictable life can be, so I struggle with the want to be carefree and impulsive in my life but then being cautious and held back by the very real nature of what death is. I want this to be one of the themes for the show, but it won’t be a talking point, more of a personality trait. This persona I will create will have bursts of spontaneity and moments of nervousness. This needs to be reflected in the way I write from now on.

I’ll admit I don’t as of yet fully know the answer to Martin’s question, what I do know however, is that since this idea came to me I have felt connected to it in a way where I do want to learn why this is something that has stuck to me.